wah... chao scared tomorrow get chinese Os results... but it might not happen, then again, who knows? can die... crap man. today we did romeo and juliet... and it was juliet's speech that we did, when she was waiting for romeo on her wedding night. but that SOB was to kill someone and get exiled. but of course juliet doesnt know that and she's waiting desperately like no one's business for him to come and love her. so my group had to do a song for her speech.

it was pretty funny. sung to the tune of "i am cow"... it was also pretty dirty minded thinking, the sort of thinking one gets when she hangs out too long with pillay and reads too many fanfics that are rated R. or even worse, not rated at all! ( too dirty to even rate) but i cant help it!!! my hair, has smoke smell, coz i stayed back to help the sec 4s taking pioneering. it just had to be on the same day as my pga interview. then, i got home at about 7.30 and had to get my hair cut. it was layered, not cut. so thin now, and much nicer. someone said my hair looked like yan cheng xu's... (u noe when it sicks up at the end) and i got it for free (natural curl and all that bull shit) and he PAID for someone to do that for him... makes you wonder...

ok... i'm like so pissed... and you'll say... so what's new? if you say that, go and boil your head. seriously, i'm too annoyed to even go about caring about your problems because face it, i just dun care. cheryl is an ass... an insipid little donkey brain, with the voice of a chimp. she has no sense whatsoever and i'll sooner boil myself in oil than say that she's an ok sis. normally, most siblings fight, but i tell you that one time too many... and she steps totally outta line.

what happened? it's that stupid fluid fusion. and the fact that i have so many activities that i dun even have time for anything else. my schedule is all planned out and that thing comes along to ruin it all. you'll think that she'll be able to come back and have tuition... after all, fluid fusion only wad, i know what she's going thru, and it sure aint hell. after all, i went thru the same thing in sec 1 for the opening of the track.

so... she says she's too tired to haf tuition, fine... then she wans to change tuition. and the only other days my teacher can make it is on wed and fri. wed is my maths tuition and fri is the day when i prepare for all guides things. "Friday... should be can lar, even better... i know you wan to go out... but we have to make some sarcifices." says mum. my foot. i dun even go out on friday all the time, i do guides stuff most of the time. hell with her. monday is always the best day to have chinese tuition as the next day there is chinese test. i'm not going to give in, i dun c y i should.

i'm not going to help my sister in any other thing, not any more, i've spent time helping her with homework and guides stuff, not any more. not after what she said. she said i cheated in escaping fluid fusion by doing pga. she doesn't seem to understand how important the pga is to me,she probably doesn't know it's importance, at least not yet, and said that the pga was just a round circled badge. she really doesn't know about it yet, since she's just doing enrolment tests. i guess it can be excused, since it WAS said in a fit of anger and she actually truly knows how much it means to me. i went to punch her lights out. seriously, i know it's just a "round circled badge" but dun you think that it means more than that to me? it represents everything that i've gained from guiding. even if i dun get the badge, i'll like always know that i've gotten this far in guiding.

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believe it or not... i did not cheat... guess it proves what i already know in the first place... I'M PERFECT... haha

pissed off.. sometimes, people should just take a look at themselves and figure out whether they are fit to enjoy being in my company! ok... sounds really egoistic but heck... i deserve it. now.. i really sound like a have a huge ego... and maybe i do, u never know.

i hate mmmmmmmaths... dnu even understand... i mean, look at it this way, do you think that differentiation is going to help you in any way in the future? questions in maths: a stone is dropped from a building, what is the velocity of the stone as it is dropped? i mean, is differentiation used to find out how much time you have to duck before the stone hits your head and splatters your brains on the floor? how screwed is that?

oh man, recieved this mail... tenpou looks so hot... -_-"

i failed!!!! failed my history... bleh... and so is my life... i very irritated... today i found out that i get to go to one of the best campfires... catholic high... but when i got the date for the campfire, it was on the day of my pga camp! so i really hope sam will let me choose which campfire i get to go to. coz after all, i'll be giving up my place to ( in my opinion) one of the best campfires!!!! argh~! the injustice of it all...

we are prisoners of our own fate... dun ask me where i got it from coz it's true!!!

today was valentine's day... and i had no one to go out with!!! no lar... see, rong siu dumped me!!!! had to go out with her mum and couldnt go out with me anymore!!! so... i asked grace to go... u know, most people get the weirdest expressions on their face when i ask them to go out with me on v-day... wonder y...

we went to taka.. kino there... i tell you arh, was quite tempted to spend 40++ on this saiyuki movie guidebook... i tell you, should try to control my saiyuki obsession, i dun think it's very healthy. going out with grace is chao fun. she's chao fun. i think that today was one of the most relaxed days i had in a long time... seriously, i feel tat it's good to slack once in a while... my piano teacher is giving me a lot of pressure and i dun think that i can play those pieces that she wants me to play... those are grade 8 standard u know, and i'm like only grade 7 standard... or possibly worse...

well, for the most part... i think the days are passing in a blink of an eye, and the time i spend lazing around gets longer and longer... which is bad... definately bad... i'm not supposed to be slacking... but studying...

the debate... THBT today's youths are pampered... opp. meaning... we have a slight chance of winning... maybe if i throw bombastic words around... the pro. might not have any idea what i'm talking about and lose! fat hope...

screw everything! let me tell ya something... valentine's day is coming and i must say that v-day is a day which i do not enjoy... hahaha... y? nonono... not because i dun have someone to celebrate it with and am jealous of those who have... but on that day, i sometimes question the sincerity of those who give gifts to those they love. sure, if u r giving gifts to your friend.... i have nothing to say. but truly, is it not the true meaning of v-day to give your heart and not just gifts which may seem materialistic?

i often get gifts from the guides and i appeaciate that a lot. after all, can anyone say with absolute truth that they wish not to receive gifts? no one can. and following that, would someone tell me what is the best gift in the world? is it the faith people have in the world? is it the hope that the world is a place full of joy? or is it just the understanding that you make a difference in a person's life?

surely, in your days where you meet friends and other people, your life HAS got to touch a person's soul and that when you go to bed at night, there's someone thinking of you and is glad that you were there to change something you your life? normally, i wun be that mushy or whatever you wish to call it, but i'll be more funky and just plain crazy... i dun like to go and probe deeper into things that have no answer or are hard to answer. but right now, it seems right to question my existance... and if i've truly made a difference in someone's life. now...

"At the point of time in my life when i realise the true meaning and joy of life, i also realise the extent of death".

think about it. it's only at the point when you realise that you've got not much time left in the world, do you begin to truly appeaciate life.

sometimes, things are not what they may seem... people should look beyond that and perhaps think that maybe there are reasons for the way things turn out? as someone said, people wear blinkers, they only have a small view of things and never glance at the full picture.

i hate tests. i hate the memorising part of it. and the stress that comes before and after the tests.. like... you study so hard before a bloody test and you worry so much about it, and then you worry somemore after you took the test because you know you screwed it up somewhere.

i haven written my speech or done amything about the debate except moan and groan at the impossibility of winning it... i am screwed... i think i like that word... pillay should add that to her lists of fun words to say... words like KABOOM! and BAMBOO... are OVER!!!!

well, it's been a pretty long time since i wrote in here and i have some doubts about writing all these crap stuff that people might read... (seriously, it has bothered me in the past) and sometimes, i wonder, will anyone even read this nonsense???? maybe, it's just me, but i hate school. like, do u think there is some purpose to going to school everyday filling your heads with stuff that you barely remember, and then go home with absolutely NOTHING left in your head except a sense of blurness? And the cycle repeats itself.

life is a mystery. a real mystery. one that people without brains cannot fathom. this does not apply to me thou. (",)

i wonder if my blog would be considered illegal to put on the net. i complain too much. about all the many insignificant things that i encounter. HECK! it's for my own entertainment. i am so lame that i haf to create my own entertainment... that's a hoot!